The Irony of Being Single...!!!

Never to late to do anything...!!!

I've heard so many story of how my friends find their love ones, and how they fall in love, and how they proposed to their partners...and most of the time i found out that it's not profoundly true. I have this one geeky friend during my high-school and he "claims" to propose to this one hottie with flowers and love letters :-/
Its surprisingly shocking because the only thing that he talks about is anime and computers :-p and i swear to god, that if he watch porn, it's probably animated :-(
I'm not saying that i don't believe him hundred percent, its just that if you know someone that close, you'll have this doubt that those person will not go out of your "expectation" and in my case, out of the looney Toon factory :-) ~its a bad thing to say to your best buddy in da world right?~
But I've learned so much about human interaction and it teaches me a lot about how it can change people. Have you ever wonder how your friend used to say stuff like "i don't give flowers to chicks...its gooey and romantic...i don't do that stuff bro..!!! " and a few year after, he change into someone that reads "Setia Ke Hujung Nyawa" and "Berilah Sayang Peluang"~I mean...whatttt..!!!!~

 


Being single is a bless or a curse?

me; few years back

I always look at it this way; i have the opportunity to look at others mistake and prepare myself before I'm actually in a relationship in hoping that I'll be a perfect boyfriend someday.But the truth is, I'm just a wimp...!!! Here i am, over-think about something that probably not worth thinking and just wait for a beautiful princess to recognize my good-will intention and falls madly in love with me~yeah rightttttt~ :-p
I know that most of my friend would think that I'm a fool in thinking that some princess would come from a castle somewhere and pick me instead of other handsome and wealthy prince out there, but i have to admit that those thought actually get me through all this time and keep me in faith :-)
But honestly speaking, those faith is getting thinner by day, and I'm afraid that in time, I'll be the "jerk" whom fail in his love life and blame fate for it :-(

The Ugly Truth...!!!

I guess, in the end, i just use more excuses rather than finding the solutions. I have to admit that I'm afraid to face the world...afraid that the world will judge me as I did to myself (i just don't like my odds) :-(
Even my geeky friend have more courage than me to stand at the center front and admit his feelings...and now, he's happily being with someone that he truly loves.

Me & Friends;during a visit at KLIA

I just find more excuses to cover up my vulnerability and i think that someday, it will eat me alive...i have to admit my problem in order for me to find myself a way...a way that probably would lead me towards "her" :-)
If she is reading this, i promise that I'll be a better person not through perfectibility, but more honesty and self-retribution :-)
I promise.....!!!!