Shadow Lover...!!!

Is It Weird?
To fall in love with someone which is not there yet....to feel her presence...to smile at crowded places (as if she is standing besides you and making jokes about those people)...to walk slowly and keep looking at your sides (as if she is walking next to you)...personally, that is really crazy stuff man...!!! Haha
Sometimes when eating alone, i still keeping it proper as if i'm eating with someone...the preparation is so detailed up to the extend that what "she" needs to do is to just fill that blank spot...I know that many will judge me when i tell them this stuff, but I just simply don't care that much...because I believe that one day, she will be thankful of all my effort...and she will be proud to have me in her life...as for me to have her's in mine...

"Bersama" (Together)
Yesterday, i just feel like writing and composing something and this stuff came out...!!! I mean, it's been awhile since my last recordings, so i think that it is a good start to kick it off by one of my new tracks...

Lyric: Bersama (Together)

[Verse I]

Kau ada dalam diriku…(You are inside me...)

Memberi kan ku semangat…(giving me strength...)

Walau jauh jasad berada…(Even though you are far...)

Suaramu masih kudengar…(your voice still lingers...)

[Verse II]

Hadiah lamaran menjelma…(A proposal arrived...)

Merantai ikatan manjamu…(Tying your sweetness...)

Biar dunia lain melihat…(Let the world see...)

Realiti hatiku padamu…(The reality of my heart for you...)

[Chorus]

Kuharap kau setia…menunggu aku disana…(I wish you'd stay faithful...waiting for me there)

Mengotakan janji sumpah setiaku…(To uphold my promises...)

Akan ku bawamu…kelangit ketujuh…(I will bring you...to the highest cloud...)

Melihat dunia…bersama…(To see the world...together...)

[Bridge]

Oh tuhan…ku syukur padaMu…(Oh God...I'm thankful...)

Kau jadikan dia hanya untukku…(You created her just for me..)

Ku berdoa…hanya bahgia…(I pray...only happiness..)

Untuk dia…untuk dia…(For her...for her..)

Song description:

This song is about how a person's journey been guided by an unknown individuals...it represent love that "transcend times" and even though the person haven't meet with his benefactor, he still felt her presence...

sometimes, love can come in many ways...and for this person is concern, his heart has been stolen by someone else which maybe not exist...but he still kept the faith high and trying to improve himself as far as he can before that faithful day arrive...

For me, this is what I've experience right now...and trust me, it is not easy to be in love with someone which is not there...you'd never know her face...her physicals...her voice...but inside your mind, she is the most perfect being that you'll ever meet...and it fuels your heart to strive and make yourself known by many...because you'll never know, she might be standing next to you this second...

Hope you'd enjoy this songs :-)

Goodbye 2014...and Hello 2015...!!!

It was quite a journey...!!!
2014 has been good so far...i mean, i've met a lot of people...going places...face a lot of challenges but fortunate enough to survive it...I cried and laugh about it so far...and it makes me realize how beautiful life is...To be honest, i never would imagine myself to stand at where i am right now...but it seems that Allah's plan is better than what i have in mind...so i just went with it...and hopefully something good will come forward...
Call me crazy, but somehow...for no reason...I've been smiling..at every small things that passes me by...those small kids running...those couple that holding hands in the train...those street junkies chilling out with their peeps...that Indian lady that works at McDonalds ice-cream counter...those Korean tourist that ask me for help...the security lady at my workplace...my bosses...gosh..!!! how much i've change so far? Seeing those people that i passed every single day makes me cherish mine more...
My mom and sister are doing fine...seeing both of my sister starting to get their life sorted out makes me a little bit relief...because my late-father voices still lingering and saying stuff like "you need to take care of your sister...and your mom..."...but i'm glad that those echo is getting further and further away now....
As far for looking for "Ms Right" is concern...I'm still searching for her...sometimes when i walk at crowded places or simply sitting alone somewhere...i felt that she is there somewhere...and it makes me turn my head quite a few times and look for her (even though i don't know what she's look-likes)...but i'm happy...happy enough that Allah makes me feel her presence even though it's not the right time for me to meet her yet...

Thousand-folds of Gratitude...!!!
I just wanted to take this opportunity to those whom has effected my life so far (you know who you are...) to thank all of you...huge or small...good or bad...nice or naughty...you have been there for me...for my best and worst...seeing me peed my pants off...or admiring my stage presence when i did my performances....or simply say "hi...and hello..." everyday....you are my inspiration...notice it or not, you are...!!!
Sometimes (and most of the times...) i know that i did not be there enough for you as much as you've did for me...and it makes me feel guilty for not being able to mirror your kindness...but do noted this...i'm trying my best right now is because of the strength that you have been giving me...every single day when i'm about to step down and giving up, i think to myself "if i fail...i failed us all...because we are all in this together...it's not me fighting fr myself anymore...it's for them..."
As the journey goes on...as the end is still dark...and as the clock still ticks....i will carry on your wishes and move forward...because looking back is not a leisure which i have right now...this weight seems manageable right now...but please keep on supporting me...because i'm pretty sure that i will crumble the minute all of you turn your backs on me....you are my sun...my light...my only source of motivation...the rest, I leave it to Allah :-)

Hello 2015...!!!
I've been thinking to do something great this year...something which will make a remark and highlights for this journey I'm in...i haven't figured it out yet...but i know deep within that it will be big...haha (exaggerating it too much)

Maybe I could go travelling to some place incredible like Switzerland....or go kayaking for days...hiking the Gunung Kinabalu also would do the trick...arghhhhh so many choices to pick...haha Maybe one at a time right? But my focus will always be my family and my career...so be sure that i will look for something on that fields too...
I just wanted to make my life goes to next level this year...enough of being the old me...i need to improve myself more...because there are so many things that i need to do...but so little time to do it...money is always an issue...but i could never let it be a hindrance...because if it is, then i will be going nowhere....i think this year would be one of the best year for me..i'm pretty confidence that it will...call it a hunch or premonition...because i will make sure that it is...

~Happy New Year To All Of You...And Have A Blasted year Ahead~   

 

Real Life Of A Commoner...!!!

The Daily Routine....!!!

Well, the other day when i was waiting for the train to my workplace...I've seen something which intrigued my vision...a daughter and her mom is arguing on something...and they are "loud" about it...i mean, at first it was a bit annoying to see someone making a scene at the public places right...but as the conversation flows....all of the people there can't help but to watch this "loud scene" to continue...the daughter is shouting something about "i want this and that..." but her mom was like "you can't have those..." and there were some hand action going on...she light punched her mom...and her mom was like "avoiding" those hand motions...and the argument continues until my train arrive...it was a 15 minutes entertainment for all, but in the end, i was looking down and think to myself...that's life...?

Later that day, when i was heading back after work...I've met with this foreign couple and the lady were like super hot...but her partner is bouncing with joy (if you know what i mean)...i try to be "receptive" about it...but deep in my heart there are still "sarcasm" and "denial"...but still...i kept my eyes shut and think to myself...that's life...

Most of my time, i keep on looking for something within our society which make us unique and special...but what I've missed is actually the fact that everyone

is unique and special...in their own way....those foreign hard-labor Bangladeshi-ans with their smells...those Indonesians with their unique taste of fashions...those Indians with their blings...those Chinese with their groups...those Malays with their prides....those Siamese with their "what'ever'-that-thing-was"....and many more....It's funny when i try to look for something different, i tend to seek for their bad traits....which is racism and politically incorrect...

But i kept looking down at the floor and say to myself...that's life...!!!

Climbing Up The Ladder...!!!

Obviously...all of us is trying (or dreaming) to be on top of everyone...be favored by many...be worship even by millions of other "loosers" out there...receive an immense amount of money for just appear in someplace exclusive...adored by groupies...chased by hot girls...buy expensive stuff just by pointing fingers at them...wow...!!! would it be great?

So...to achieve that...we commoner dressed up like a star...push ourselves and our credits to bought those expensive items...join those so-called "hotties" just to get some actions....going places not to experience the scene, but more likely to take picture just to show that "i can..." fake our smiles and life in front of camera and video recorder just to show that "i have an interesting life..." hoping that people would buy it and raise you higher on top of this so-called "cycle of life"....

Sad is it...? Don't you feel it...? i mean, most of us trying to be someone that is different than themselves...and "copying" other people's life is more pleasuring than living our own....personally, what's the point of "living" when you lived someones else's life? Would you be fine with that? Would you be happy? Because you are special for the person that you truly are...not the one that you've became....and you should focusing on finding yourself more than dreaming to be the same as your "iconic person"...

Limitless Limitations Liaise Loopholes...!!!

I'd never say that "us" commoner have no future whatsoever to stand at the lime light...because as a commoner myself..."trying" is the only way to succeed...and without it, we will always stay the same...being stagnant not usually good...but not a bad idea also...we have to accept the fact that the world is changing...the people are changing...and the hopes and dreams just got a little bit higher this time around...so the choices that you've made are the ones which determine your fate...

Some people like to identify "us" commoner as those "bugs" which flies at night...searching for any sources of light and get attracted to it....and when we get too close...those light will burn us and kill us...even though we saw a lot of our comrades died in the action...we still push our self to reach it...because each and everyone of us realize that life is too short to be scared and wait for miracles to happen...so be mindful :-)