Turning The Table…!!!

It takes courage…!!!

Not many dares to take this oath…I mean, surrendering yourself to the idea of you yourself are not worthy of such “chance”; regardless of what it is….is just the same as lowering your ego…your self-belief…your passion…your ideology…your everything towards the extend of putting you in the other side of the fence…admitting your lost is somewhat challenging especially to those whom have a higher price than the Himalayas…personally, I also struggling to admit it myself…because you always “think” that you are right…right? So blinded by that thought makes anyone feel “determine” of whatever choices or action that they made…and when other people started to make even a slightest comment of those things that you do…you tend to retaliate… L

Not to mention if among those “commentator” lies your competitor or enemy…thus the acceptance level becomes lower and prove to have a negative impact on your life in the long run…”what if they were right…” will never be in the picture…trust me...I’ve been there…

I believe that it takes more than just “rationality” or “peace of mind” to turn the table around…because they will always be “walls” which burdens or deteriorate you from finding the truth (or at least making a point) in life…

Admit it…!!!

For me, admitting your defeat or losses are the first step of avoiding self-deprivation…thus make yourself open for other possibility of regaining strength to “win back” what you’ve loss or finding something better…Judging by those facts, only you can lift up your courage to do something more and meaningful with your life…because there a much more to this world than what you think…

Don’t be too prideful with what you’ve had or done so far…because those so-called “signature you” maybe didn’t even count in the “new you” at present…people are changing, why shouldn’t you? Ask yourself this question as many times possible…then you’ll get what I mean… J

Don’t get me wrong…having a philosophy in life is good…not to mention being the “you” you wanted “you” to be is admirable at times…but known this…if those so-called “ideology” of yours would benefit negatively towards the people surrounding you, what would be the implication of those act? You yourself made the choice which giving the chance of others to resent you more than what they already have…It’s not a good “philosophy” now is it? :-p

Live Now, So You Can Fight Tomorrow…!!!

This is a good statement…I mean, don’t think that all those people that you’ve seen on the street are ordinary or typical “street walker”…because you’ll never know whether those alleyways walker is commonly beings which considered as “fallen” in your own sense of belief…or just those “extra-ordinary” gentlemen which waiting for their time to shine…each people have their own story to tell…just like you and I…so treat them as such…respect them when passing by…because, just like us…they are also struggling with whatever life has thrown away at them…and yet, they still able to walk tall in front of you…

Turning the table is not easy…sometimes you need helps from others to do it…some choose to do it alone…some do it for fame and glory…some struggle for it just so they can change their standards of living…some only can pray for it because they couldn’t even think of making the first steps…so if you are among those whom “chosen” to be a part of it…be grateful…because what you have right now, could be someone else “dreams and prays”….. 

Can Ex’s still be Friend?

Can you fight the feelings?

You were once fall in love with each other…sharing something that only both of you know…the moment that you had is irreplaceable…the warmth of your partner still been felt under your skin….and yet you weren’t the same as you were before…can you cope with that? Can both of you keep on lying to each other by saying that “it is okay” between the two of you? The daring gesture of your wishful-eyes will always stare at her…glance at her…and without you noticing, you’ve been all over her…your mind…your thoughts…your attention is drawn towards her…can you still say that “I’m okay…”?

It is tough when two Ex’s still wanted to be friend because of the feelings that drawn both of them towards each other is so strong…can you blame them…? The irony of seeing that person which once standing beside you surely mark this awkwardness…uncertainties…sadness…guilt…anger…and so many more which only one heart can define…In the end, you can’t do anything anymore…either you or them that responsible for it…the relationship has set its sail (for some reason) and it bound to not be similar as what it used to be…not any more…!!!

Sad isn't it? What I can say is…I never would have dream of this could ever happen to me…and when it does…it sucks…!!! L

The Fake smiles…!!!

Reality checks…seeing that person in front of you every single day really put the needle in your heart, right? What does it mean? Does I still have feelings towards her? If I be so bold…I would say “yes” in a heartbeat….but you just can’t simply do that stuff…because it will put some false hope towards yourself…in your mind, you’ll always think that “she didn’t even care about my feelings anymore…or did she…” and this puzzle will repeat themselves until the very last of her glance a far…

Then this “fake smiles” and “fake feelings” start to appear…these bastards only know one thing…”to conflicts every ounce of your feeling towards that person and make it disappear…”and the last thing you know, you’ve been putting up this “smiles” which full of sorrow and despair…and trust me…It shows…!!!

You can always lie with your smiles…but your heart will always stay true…I think, that is one of the wonder of the human heart…to be honest…I don’t think that there is other honest organ in the human anatomy other than the heart…and the sucky part it…that thing only omit “beats” to express its intention…the more it beating…the more crucial and important that stuff for you (say’s your brain…) but still, your brain understand it…your body felt it…your whole senses receive it… :-/

Faking your feeling surely a tough thing to do…and it’s also not healthy…so stop…!!!

The Tears within…!!!

I’ve experience this hundreds of times before (and now still)…it is tough when having the person that you’ve love in front of you…let along someone that have be with you (for how many years…) just being there…near but far…so close until you can smell her cologne yet untouchable…you just want to shout at her “I still love you….can we please get back together…?” but it seems not working like that…either it’s you pride that’s holding you…or simply just the fear…fear of losing her again…from my part…losing her once is enough…if it did happen again, I don’t know whether I can bear the feelings or not…It is good enough that we are still friends…at least I’m happy when she’s happy…and I’m happy for everything that makes her happy…I think this is when “true love” reveal itself…a wise man once said “love is not about possession, it is about appreciation…” and by doing this, I found out that I appreciate he existence more than ever…even we are not together like we once did before…but at least being this close…seeing her living her dream…finding that “better person” than me…and smiling day by day…make my day worth a while…makes me realize that every ending has a new beginning…those were hers…and hopefully mine were just around the corner…!!!  

Don’t Be Afraid…!!!

To Love…!!!

Believe it or not, I just have an amazing chat with my old friend just now…for me to be able to meeting him is considered as “lucky” enough because this guy is whom I looked up for before (and we rarely see each other since the past four years)…Since I’ve known him, he were like this super cool dude with his knowledge and observation towards his surroundings and everything….not to mention “religious” For me he is the ideal person which I try to become…but I guess I’m still far from reaching it :-P

We are at the same age…and we both recently completed our studies…and we were like chatting on how tough it was to get a job nowadays…and not to mention doing some “catching up” with each other’s life…suddenly he reach his pockets and brought out a card that says “Wedding’s Ceremony” and somehow his name were on it…this proves to be a really good news for me since he told me about his engagement news a year before J I just can’t believe another one of my best friend is getting married…

Upon our chats, he were all like “I’m lucky to have her…” and “This is what Allah has planned for me…” with a smile which I can’t even describe with words on how happy his faces look-a-like J His love story is the most “shortest-but-daring” which I’ve ever witness (myself)…and this chronicles of his will forever be imbedded in my mind (I can’t tell you the details…sorry…!!!) :-p

I’ve told him my situation and he replied “don’t worry…your destiny has already been set up by Him, the only question is when and where….not how or whom…because the choice are already been given for you to reach it…but the end is been blanked for a reason…for us to put our faith in Him…always remember that His love is greater than your disappointment...and His plan are better than your dreams…what you need to do is just belief and don’t be afraid…because He is always be with you…always…” Gosh…!!! How can he be so cool with those words…haha

To Get Married…!!!

I always heard that no matter what your life’s situation are, when you've married, it will change everything…since few of my friends has proven it, It seems that those statement are true enough to be belief inn… (It’s not that I'm being cynical about these things…) Your way of living…your wealth…your maturity…everything will change themselves…but the question mark for me personally is whether those changes are for the better or worse?

My friend said to me that “how can you say that the person that sits next to you will bring you despair and ruining your life? Whatever reason that they may be, it will come back to Allah’s plan…and His plan are absolute…no flaws…and believe me when I say this…your life…or any other people’s life will change for the better...In Shaa Allah…”

When I think it back clearly…the person could never be some bad intrusion towards my life…she can never be...because having her is enough to make my day worth awhile…let along being a hindrance…man...I am such a stupid douche…

  

To Chase Your Dreams…!!!

A wise men once said “A man work under the broad daylight to feed himself…but work on nigh falls to reach his dream” In my defence, we are all dream-chaser…but the distance between each of us is how we reach them…some falls…and some prevails…but nothing comes easy…and nothing comes clear…success is just something which we created ourselves…but the means to reach it already been fated…

Being said all of these makes me realize that being afraid is just prove how big my dreams were...but it doesn't mean that it is impossible to reach it…it just means that I need to go out of my comfort zone to grab it…but for whatever it worth…I know that when I reach my destination...I will be a different person…J