Where Did I Do Wrong…?
I just need to define this actions of mine whilst
considering the effect of it towards my life onwards…It’s devastating to be put
in between “letting go” of something firm and concrete to grasp this blurred
truth of my destiny…I know that most of us have this side-effect of “knowing
too much” and due to that, we tend to keep on hoping for other windows of
opportunity to come and knocking on our doors…but let’s face it…sometimes we
need to “choose” what’s rolling in front of us…even though that might not be
what we wanted in life…but at least it’s what has been given by “Him” to us at
the moment….
Being conspicuous does has its perks…sometimes it “swings”
on your way…and sometimes “the other way around”….but this game of “fetch” will
always be repeated until one of us actually decided to “catch it”….Right now, I’ve
born with this “unconditional” respect to those whom (without a doubt) pick the
closes opportunity without even thinking or hesitated and live with that
decision for his entire life…because I could never do that…I just couldn’t L
Do I Have Too…?
Not everyone been given a smooth gate away to heaven…some of
us struggles just to have a sniff of the scent of success…and most of us die
trying to even have that opportunity lies in front of them….so how do I justify
this action of mine by letting this opportunity “slips by” just like that…? Am
I an idiot? Am I picky of this sort of things? As I reckon myself, I always consider
the pro’s and con’s when it comes to making big life-decisions like this…but
somehow this time it’s different…Its totally not the same as it use too…why?
Why do I caught up with this obvious-looking problems which
I just recently uncover…? Do I have to justify everything that I’ve done? Do I
really need to tell the world of my reasoning? Because for some reason, I felt
that the world is judging me without even looking at my perspectives….they
lingers and looking down at you whilst giving this aura of negative perceptions
of “you don’t know anything…” to you….It sucks…!!! But I guess it’s the kind of
a price that most of us need to pay to let ourselves loose from their grips…I
really hope that I did it…!!! I really do….
When To Decide…?
I still don’t have the answer for this yet…but I strongly
belief that when the time comes…I will know about it….Not everyone can predict
the future (metaphorically speaking) and not everyone have experience dealing
with making a big-life-changing decisions…but when the time comes, those fear
of making wrong decision will surely turns you into a more mature person…because
by that time, you have the pressure of doing something that will affect those
whose dear to you…and due to that, you will eventually have to decide for what
is best at the moment for all of you (not just yourself)…
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