My Second Big Breakthrough...!!!

The Chance...!!!
As all of you might have known (or didn't know) i have been given the opportunity to perform in front of the whole bunch of my seniors, friends and juniors last week...and the feeling is phenomenal :-) 
I could not express my gratitude enough to those whom have the decencies to "listen" to this "hopeless romantic" guy singing...haha
The event was gracefully organized and the audience was decent enough to hold up an applause to those whom perform that night (including me and my band)...i was really excited at first but when the actual day arrives, the sudden "butterfly in the stomach" appears and it cracks the hell out of me :-p but i try to play it cool (i hope it doesn't shows that obvious) haha
The food was great and the crowd was surprisingly cheerful (i just don't know why...) and the caterer and those waitresses are undoubtedly "cute" :-) I'm actually even thinking on trying hitting on one of them (can you believe that..?)
It was by far "the most memorable night of my life" plus the honor given by my junior upon "me and my friends" depart from our university are the "icing on the cake"....
Seeing them smiling all the way through is enough to get my blood pump with the adrenalin to do my best in my performance that night :-)

The Band...!!!
These are the most important "back bone" of the night's performances...i strongly think that without their "magical touch" that night...those miracle won't happen..and due to that note, I really thankful for their participation :-)
The band keyboardist whom always complaint about how he has to do all the heavy role in the performance and the guitar player whom surprisingly been mock as "underutilized" throughout the whole charade...haha :-P how i will always remember partnering with all of your guys...i surely will :-)
Not to mention my guest performer (which is my senior)...he "on the last ring of on the bell" seek for our help to "back him up" for this one special request to perform for her fiance which for me is the highlight of the night...it was so great to be able to do a job well done that night :-)
Not to mention this one friend of mine which almost sing a song similar to mine and get a "pay back" visit from me all the way from the stage to the audience dining table...i could not be happier (i'm a bad guy am I...?) :-p he was so scared when i approach him once i try to do some interaction with some of the audience that joined the event on our last performance...sorry bro...you should have know what's coming :-p


Me...!!!
Well, for me..those performance was my last chance of saying "thank you" for the great and wonderful time that I've spend with all of those good people...and because I'm not rich enough to give all of them some cash to compensate their "trouble" so i choose to do a little bit of singing instead...(i'm a cheap stake right...) :-p
These four wonderful year has taught me a lot of things in life...and about friendships...not to mention the people that I've met...those girls that I try to "hit" and those lecturer whom endlessly pray fr my success by giving me lesson which molded me towards who I am right now...
The pain and despair...the laughter and smiles...all of those experience has given me the odds on how life works and how those people's role became important even though they are not there with me forever...
I don't know whether i will have the opportunity to meet with all of them at once again like that night...but i'm pretty sure that those people will remember me as i were to remember them...(fingers cross)



 



        

Younger, Same Age, or Older...?

Younger Girl...!!!
I always favor those younger girl in terms of their enthusiasm and energetic appearances (not that I'm that far off to begin with...) and their ways of thinking is much more simpler compared to those older women...!!! :-p
I guess sometimes it doesn't hurt to be just a bit stupid or doing something crazy once in awhile..am I right? Always look funky...and dress a bit different (not that weird, but does shows how bold they are...) They laugh a bit funny with those immature voice of theirs....not to mention the way they look up to you when they needed something...Its kinda cute to see those sparkly eyes (I guess it does feel kinda nice feeling needed) :-p
Not tied up to rules so much...and their rebellious act has always been a scene to watch...and from my experience so far, i can see that those younger girl tend to put their whole trust towards their partner which is "stupid" but "sweet" at the same time :-p
Its funny to see them re-act back those scene (like in their favorite television shows) and hoping that their partner would catch those "hint" of what's next...!!! Their cosmetics is something to be rearrange back but i can see their effort to embrace their femininity attributes...i guess it does feel good when you are young... :-)
They are the best...!!!

Similar Age Girl...!!!

Wow...this is a tough prospect to analyze...even for myself...haha :-p I mean, those girl that have similar age as me (or anyone else as far as their is concern) does provide a certain advantages due to the same timeline that those girl are living are almost the same as their partner...and the argument of "who is more experience..?" are no longer valid :-p
Both partner seems to taste the bitterness of each "era" (well it depends on their origins of course...) and the life standards are almost similar...in terms of the taste in musics...foods...or maybe clothing :-) this usually the best pair because of the similarity arise and both of the partner seems to have little difficulties in understanding each others interest :-)
It always trigger my jealousy each time I saw a couple that coming from a same classroom because they are destined to find each other in a really specific places...and to be able to see those couple sitting next to each other every single day add up those feelings to the max :-p haha

Older Women...!!!
People often says that "older women knows how to treat guys better than those younger girls..." I guess those words are true by both its definition and preferences....i mean, older women have more experience in handling tough situations...they may experience break-ups more often then those guys "crushes" :-p So those women really knows how to avoid unnecessary fights or irrelevant issues to effect their relationships...It always triggers my attention that those older women are more appealing than those younger girl due to their physicals and personal presentations....and don't get the wrong ideas when I state this, but for me personally...those older women really know how to please a guy rather than thinking selfishly of their own desire like those younger girls...
They are more calm and stable in terms of handling their emotional distress...and not caught up with those small stuff that usually bothers younger women and those "mature girls" really know what they want in life and choose their partner base on their emotional needs rather than those material desire and stuff... :-)

No One Is Perfect...!!!
I know that choosing a perfect girl is somewhat impossible....but at least i wanted to know that the girl I'll choose is the one whom is moving towards those "perfections" :-) Be it emotionally unstable, Selfishly redundant, or just plain craziness...I don't really care how imperfect she is...as long as i know that by being together with her will make her complete...
People always says "You complete me..." to their partner...but how sure you are that you can "complete them..." :-/
Be it younger, similar or older...what i care the most is how she feel about me...if she can trust me enough to be in her life...and seeing her make a fool out of herself...than it should be clear enough that she is perfect for me...because no one is more perfect for you accept yourself...and by those act of them make me realize...that i am hers and she is mine to be :-)

~The Search Continues....~          

 

Bad Boy Good Boy Chronology...!!!

I'm Bad...!!!
I know that most of my peeps always wonders "why?" do i keep on suggesting that I am a bad boy? Well, the answer is simple...i want to be different than my old self...!!!
No one want a nerd...!! am I right? be it a friend or foe...its just nature :-p Usually i was this nerdy kid whom look less intimidating with my glasses...and books...and those outdated clothing...haha
Sometimes i wonder "how can i live with myself back then...?" :-p Every time i browse through my old files and saw an old picture of myself...i would be like "what daaaaa...." haha
No wonder i have no chance with them ladies...(if you know what i mean...) but truthfully speaking...i feel kinda sad for my old self on being like that...i mean, that dude really have a hard time during those days...he really did :-(
But don't get me wrong...I'm still that nerd boy...sluggish...childish...and guess what "still a virgin" baby...muahaha :-p
But maybe my persona has change...my attitude are also change...i hope that this changes that I've made could bring me towards a new height...to a place which i would never reach if i still being me like I was before...

I Blame My Friends...!!!
They would kill me if they knew about this phrase...haha :-p I guess, thanks to them, i finally realize that nothing good gonna come if i keep being my old self....being this "new me" does boost my confidence by a mile...no longer smiling politely whilst hoping for a reply...no more nodding my head to almost every known person that walk pass by...no more awkward hand gesture and those ridiculous outfits...my hair before were like those book-worm and my expression of fashion were like the Sahara's dessert...nothing even compare to my taste for self satisfactions...i use to just be happy with lying around surrounding by my Que-cards and magazines...
Seeing me right now almost makes me cry...just imagine how far I've come to this stage...only to know that I've always been given a choice...a choice to choose what i want..and when do i need it...not govern by anyone else...no sir...!!!
I feel like I'm the king of the world right now :-)

The Most Important Lesson...!!!
I've learn that there is a huge different when you trying to meet people's expectation rather than being your true self...before this, i always hear the phrase "be yourself..." but i never actually get it until now :-p
This is really important input for me because as I recall, almost my entire life, I've always be this guy whom wanted to please other people...always care about what people says about me...for me, that is the most concerns thing...but now i realize that no matter how hard you try...you can never satisfy "them" :-( They will always say something about you...good or bad...those words will always coming inn whether you like it or not....
So, when i decided to take action into my own hands...those words seems slowly deemed...not because what i did is "right" but more or less, they consider me as "not appealing" as I used to be :-p
I mean...its good that their eyes is subjected to another target...but it didn't mean that my goals are shifted...i can promise you that my focus will always be the same...nothing that i can do that enabled me to change that...
I guess in the end...I'm still the same old me...maybe my appearances has change...but my resolve are still tombed deep within me... forever...!!!
Its good to be bad...doesn't it? :-)