I guess most of us have been in this sort of situation right? when you really like someone, and you try hard as hell to win her/his heart, but in the end, he/she just went with someone else...and the silly part is, that person has done nothing to deserve her/his love....nothing...!!!!
Some people call it chemistry...some call it love at first sight...but how do you justify those whom struggling day and night to deserve those love from you? how would you compensate them? by saying hurtful stuff like "we can just be friends..." are you kidding me? Will you settle with that if you are in their shoes? certainly not wouldn't you? :-(I know exactly how it feels...because I've been there a couples of times already...the feeling of not knowing where this relationship is going keeps on bugging you day and night...and consistently you keep asking yourself "What if...." is not a good thing...trust me...!!!
Sad...every time i think about the last time...when I was in that place where the sky seems dark and your emotions are not always neutral...the anger when she is being with other guys...every time she picks up a phone from that someone that you don't know and laugh casually....when she constantly texting even when you are in front of her...it hurts...because then you know that you are not the one she looking forward to meet when you met...and you are not the person she eager to be with when you sits next too....but since you felt that your love is real...and you felt that when she is in a trouble she will realize that you are always be there when she needed you the most (like in the movies) you still be there...to comfort her when she felt like she needed someone...but in the end, she goes to another person which she think is her second best choice...and only then you realize that you have no chance from her long list of choices...I laughed more than I should inside when that happen...and you know what? It sucks....it really does...!!!
The Friend-zone Fright...!!!
Since I've been in those situation more than once, I decided to not make the first move to anyone...because my heart has suffered more than it should and someone need to compensate for it...someone that really deserve it...
I remember this one time when I'm at this party, and I've met this really cute girl...and from afar I try to see whether she comes with anyone (or partner) or not...when I notice that she comes there with her girlfriends, I felt relief and I start walking my way to meet her at close...suddenly she picks up her phone and start to smile and then she went to the corner to have that phone call...I just divert myself from her and go straight to elsewhere....I was like "that maybe he family....or maybe her boyfriend..." and this kind of feeling really hurt because you're not even at the introductory phase yet, but you seems to demotivated yourself and have this doubts all over your head....at least I don't see any rings on her finger...(but nowadays girl really like to wear rings...so it make me harder to determine it...) hahahaI blame my personality for not being too easy going since the first time I've been in the train-wreck because if I did, I wont be as pathetic as I'm now...!!! Gosh...do anyone have drugs for this sort of stuff? Have anyone invented some sort of pills that could make you be brave and all casual when you are getting to know a girl? because I would really need to use some...
Hope It Will End Soon...!!!
Well, the third wheel is use to train you when you ride the bicycle for the first time right? So i guess someday I will be brave enough to pull off that third wheel and ride on only two wheels...just me and her...to somewhere new...somewhere only we know...without any of those additional or spare wheels holding us back...just swarm all over the places...feel the breeze...savor the moment..wont you agree?
There are saying that says, "We love the ones that hate us...hate the one that love us...leaves the one that stays...and stays with someone whom will leaves us...:" Ironic doesn't it?The heart is really fascinating thing to explore...and I'm grateful actually for the pain I've suffered before because It has teaches me a lot of things that I wouldn't dream I knew if it weren't because of it...the pain is real, but it only makes me stronger...and wiser...just can't wait to be with that someone special...just imagine a world of fun when we are together someday...someday seems quite a long shot...but I'll take it :-)
