When you’ve
met someone special…!!!
Do you ever
feel this very deep urge within you that makes your heart rushing endlessly?
Suddenly your breathing seems harder to maintain…that “split seconds” flashes
of you and that person’s being together…for certain people, those flashes may
end up standing in front of the isle with them…gosh! What a feeling right?
Able to have
those feeling is enough to make a person’s day…at least for me:-p Every time
when I end up at the mall, or library, or just simply when jogging at the park…when
I met a girl (that just simply passing by) I would think to myself…”what would
it feel to love you…?” and those question always end up with me staring at that
girl until she’s out of sight…haha :-p (makes me a freak right..?) But I seems
to not be able to help it…I’m just that curious of how it would feel….!!!
Even though
I still in the run to find “her”…but it seems that she is nearer now than she
ever was…her scent started to take its form…her face started to appear…and her
voice seems louder than before…”she is near….” were what I always told myself J
Day Passes
By…!!!
Truthfully…I
am tired of waiting…every single day seems longer and less enjoyable…not as
what my life used to be…but, I do feel more rejoiced….more alive than whom I
were ever was…it’s a funny thing which I have to certainly say that “I am dying…but
It’s much better than living without knowing that I’ve tried…” J
My heart is
more stronger than It was before…I could control my emotions better and not to
mention my confidence level are going up the charts (from where it used to be…)
I’m blessed…but I can’t deny that sometimes I feel like I’ve been cursed also…but
that is a different story which my “dark side” would love to write…
It does
seems like I am waiting for someone…someone which destined to be with me till
the rest of my life...someone whom will see me unlike anyone else…but
personally, if I can sent a letter to Allah, I’m pretty sure that the
letterhead would sound more like “How much longer does I need to bear…” because
I’m anxious to meet her…I really do J
The Puzzles…!!!
I think I
can already visualize some of her character now (better than before)…and maybe
some of you would ask “how do I know that I can?” well, to answer that, let me
tell you how I used to search for her?
Basically
before this, I used to imagine that my girl would be really beautiful (you can’t
be mad at me because I do have high expectation due to my waiting...it should
count for something…right?) haha but when the time passes by…those girl that I
found really beautiful seems not very appealing anymore…it was like something
is missing about that girl…and those so called “hot and sexy” body which I used
to adore now seems less attractive…the “bitchy-like” girl which I found
profoundly mark as “interesting and exciting” now seems a little more annoying…
Have I
changed? Or Have I gone mad? Because those girl are hot as hell…!!! But why do
I feel less attracted to them rather than before? (Hopefully I’m not turning
gay…haha) But when I think about it more carefully, the answer takes a form of
a poetry which I think quite brilliant (blushes by my own self-proclaims)
“They are a
sea of virgin…and those which are not…count them all, then you shall neither
find love or happiness…only despair await those whom blindly driven by lust but
not those whom cherishes every ounce of beauty that lies within her…crave for
it but not as far thus your faith guide you…thus your heart tells you…thus your
instinct leads you…you are your own path…you are your own journey…because all
men follow those path chosen for them, but those real man chose his own path…”
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