The Art of War...!!!

Life is a war...!!!
Each and every second of our life is like a battlefield...you don't know which direction will the enemy emerge...and you don't know whether today is your last day or not...!!! Even there is no machinery and artillery were involves, but the cause are almost the same...
Human were meant to struggle in order to survive...even in the very beginning of our lives...since we were born..till the end of our time, those struggling never stops...not even for a little...
the fear of loosing the battle always triggers each and everyone of us to do more when the "next" arrives...and the cycle goes on and on....Some wins, and most of us loose...i guess that is the nature of our existences..we are all fighting to reach somewhere...somewhere in the middle...and that middle is going nowhere...in the end, those effort might seems hopeless because the truth always let you down...the hatred always worn you off...and the sadness always holds you back...sad isn't it? :-(

The Virtue of Winning the Battle...!!!
Most of us seems happy just to taste the very tip of those so-called "victory"...but what does it holds to in the sense of your own salvation? Correct me if I'm wrong, but those countless victory that you and I gained is not really meant for ourselves...even the "hot seats" are singles...but the chain runs through miles apart...we don't win for ourselves...we win for others....always remember that...!!!
Personally, it sadden me to see most of us cries over a defeat...and some cheer for the lost of others...but what those people don't see is that they are killing each other...friends, relatives, even their love ones just for the sake of having those "small but meaningful" victory...and for what reason?
Fame and glory is one of it (most definitely) but does it really bring much of a happiness to you? not to mention those people whom followed you in the very beginning of your existences as a "dictator".....
What does this victory meant for them? What ground does it holds you to follow such leader? It is a puzzle that oneself can define...and those descriptive measurement only can determine the level of your "trust"...but not reasoning....better remember that...!!! :-(

The Real Art of War...!!!
I guess, when it comes to the real war...or just those "war" that you fight in your everyday life...it need to have some valid truth about the reason of you doing it....many have fallen for the wrong reasons...not to mention many have won for the wrong reasons...and this what makes the essence of our lives seems not moving towards the "right" direction in the first place...living or dying is not the issue when it comes to the virtue of your own salvation...but the question lies in the meaning of your sacrifice in believing that those effort that you make will make you going somewhere..have a daring gesture of marching towards the war zone is plausible...but if you have even a slightest "hesitation" will make a difference...a difference on whether you will succeed with the real war..or just loose the chance for those whom have better reasons too...
There are many reason for fighting the war..just make sure that yours are better.... :-)


                                                          ~That is the real Art of War~

The Cost Of Life...!!!

How much is it...?

Honestly, people keep on juggling back and forth with this matter...some claims that their live is worth much more than others...and some willing to give it all just to have others to begin theirs...what an odd spectrum wasn't it? Believe it or not, but most of us seems to neglect the value of our own live which matter the most...because if you have time to console it to others, then you better think on how it would repent towards yours...
It sad sometimes thinking about this plague of ours which seems to let our own self to destroy the very nature of our own existences by inheriting this negative posture of our own sarcasm...your life is worth more than you think they are...so be  gentle with it...

How cool was it to have priceless tag on our own self to begin with...!!!    
As far as I've known myself, God has given me something which is inseparable but yet unworthy of me to have in the very beginning of my existence..which is "myself"....i don't have to prove much in order for me to have "it" but yet it gives me a lot of openings and wonderment that i could never seek for more...but still i think i take it for granted countless time and keep making as if I deserve it rather than I receive it...
Bold and inhabitant is what I stood by towards this predicament but i don't think I am much of a warrior in either determine the fate of my own salvation or less..my own downturn.... :-(

The Dedication...!!!
Well, the reason for this short but meaningful writings is to be as a remembrance to my beloved friends brother which lost his life during an accident recently...and this make me realize how important life is towards yourself...not to mention, others that feel the presence of our life in theirs...
Hopefully, by adding up this point in my life..I could gain more for others...and those whom take pertinent concern on this matter...

~May your soul rest in peace and blessed by Him...Only through Him we're all created, and only through Him we we're send back...~   Insyallah...amen :-)

Time Heals Everything...!!!

Is it true...?
Well, judging by my own experience...its either can be true or false...not that "it" applies to everything, but it seems that these matter depends on how you make the difference yourself :-(
Try putting yourself in a situation where you feel mad, or sad about something and it drains your emotion to bits...and the only thing left for you to do is to just hope that when the time flies, those sorrowful thing will fade away...but later you discover that it is not happening...and you still feel those emotions lingering inside your head...why?
From what I've experienced, those stuff is still wondering inside your mind because you yourself failed to let it go...time does play its role by giving you some personal space to "let go" but if you're not...then it just seems useless to even clinch to "time" in the first place...

My Bad Experience...!!!
Girls...!!! what do you expect...? Haha :-p i don't know why, but it seems that my luck with girls is just unimaginably the worst part of my traits...
Even though I never have a formal relationship with any girls yet, but I must admit that "I've tried" couples of times before saying this devastating statement of myself :-(
I just don't get them...(i can tell you that...) but thanks to them, I've learned something that I wouldn't have if It weren't because of me "trying" to woe them in the first place...and it makes me feel confident the next "try-out" came into the picture :-p
But, even though the "next" is always right at the next door...but it seems those "past" still hunts me down and it just won't leave me soundly... :-(
I mean, i know that I suppose to let go...but it just not easy as "forgetting" if you know what i mean...
"I like them for a reason..." is what lingers inside my head all the time...and "what if" has always been the question marks that's playing over and over again...and it's not pleasant guys :-( if you've experience the same thing...you would understand...

Mr. Time...!!!
Me and mr. time goes way back since my first attempt (read the previous post for more detail) and up until now, he has serves me well by giving me an ample time for myself to "forget"...but i guess when the moment seems right, those memory just rushes inn and drown me again and again...I hate that pretty much :-(
"The next one is the one..." is what i kept saying to myself every time my attempt fails but it just get me nowhere...I blame everything to myself and the reason of me not able to forget is because i keep on having some sort of faith that someday, those girl will realize that I'm the one for them....but i guess it just prove how an idiot i am to myself :-(
Even though Mr. Time has done a lot to help me throughout this past years...but it won't do much until I prove to him that I willingly taking the next bold step to just "erase" those memory out of my head...
                                     

    ~"Time will heal..." but only to those whom let it too....~

 
 

A Tale About A Man Who's Dreaming About A Girl...!!!

Once upon a time,
In a castle, far far away live a beautiful princess named "Heather" and her kingdom spreads to countless miles across the land and the sea. The King of that land was "Richard" and his queen were long gone after she has given birth to Heather almost twenty years ago.
The Kingdom was so peaceful and the commoner were living in prosperity without any fear of going into a war by the great ruling of Richard...he was the greatest ruler by that time...
The country's fame and fortune spreads onto the winds of sounds and the words seems to be heard by every ears of other countrymen across the kingdom...
Heather's beauty is said to be so refine in which makes the birds sing upon her glides whilst the sun's light reflected her face so perfectly in the ponds which makes the fish circle her shadows endlessly...
Many prince across the kingdom tries to take her hand in marriage after hearing about her magical beauty but none prevail after get rejected by Richard himself...The Great King always said to thee "he whom put his lust over his heart shall never be the perfect groom and he whom put her beauty above all will not be happy when the time fades..."
So, many have fail and because of that, Richard feels that there is no one that deserve his princesses hands and this make him sad...
"Why none of these perfect gentlemen be perfect for my beloved daughter?...."
Among those patriots were Prince Brandon...said to be the bravest prince of all time....Prince Shannon...said to be the most handsome bachelor of all time...and Prince Greagor...said to be the wealthiest of them all...
but none of them were chosen and this strikes curiosity among the people in the lands....many claims that the Great king is crazy for wanting more than plenty...and dream of something that doesn't exist...
Even getting a lot of rumors, Richard strongly holds his ground and keep on searching for the shadow of his imagination...this also make Heather feels sad seeing her father wondering around day and night and traveling from countries to countries..
However, in a one fine evening, upon his journey to the west port of the country, in his sleeps...Richard dreams of a river flowing gracefully complementing the scenery of a green woods around it...the birds chirping and the animals were playing among themselves peacefully...and suddenly came an old man holding a wooden stick which looks like a cane and his face were friendly and full of smiles...
The King approaches him and greet the old man humbly...and he said "what a fine day today is...doesn't it?..." The old man just nodded his head without replying a single word and suddenly he starts walking towards a wooden house near the river banks...the king followed that old man till he saw a person...a normal man with his normal face...nothing is fancy about the person...
The old man raises his hand to that person and starts walking towards him...the king followed him too...and when their eyes meet...the guy starts to speak "Today i dream about her again...but this time she's looking sad...i don't know why...?" Richard's feel confuse for a moment..."what is this dream this person were talking about?..." and the conversation flows inn as the person keeps on describing the "girl" in his dream...
Slowly, the picture of the girl in that person's dream became apparent to the king...The girls smiles..the girls voice...and the girls doings..."this girl of his are Heather...!!!"
The king's thoughts bundled with question..."what is the meaning of this...?" why this person talks about Heather like he knows her...? not even a single persona of Heather is wrongly describe by him...as if he has been living with her for a long time...
As the face of Richards appears concern about the topic of that person, the old man then suddenly face his body to the king and hold the king's hand....the person suddenly stops talking as he sees the doing of that old man...that person also look confuse for a moment...as the same thing happen to him...
Without a single voice, the old man put both of their hands together..."what this old man tries to do to us?..." said the king....the person just wave his head showing that he also doesn't have any clue...
Just as the moment become more and more confusing..the old man suddenly open up his mouth and starts to speak.... "find him....find him...find each each other....and you will meet with the one you are searching for..." The king just stare at the old man with a thousand of questions lingering in his head...the person also did the same thing and as both of them wanted to seek for an explanation from the old man, suddenly the king hear a gentle voice calling for him...and when he gazing for the source...he woke up from his sleeps...
"It's morning already sire..." said his maiden....Richard seems puzzled by the dream that he just had and he seems to not able to forget the face of that person that talks about her Heather truthfully unlike anyone else...
"I must find this person..." said the king to himself....

~To be continued~

p/s: haha...actually, i didn't have any clue of what's happening next...i guess we all not able to do so until i figure out what the next chapter is all about...for me..this story represent much about me and my dreams...i guess "the person" could be perfectly describe as me...and my quest to find the one for me...sometimes i dream about the girl of my dream..and wish that she is doing the same thing about me...thinking about how i would look-a-like..and how awesome i would be to her...hopefully this dream is not just a dream...because every fairy tale has a happy ending right...? "Happily Ever After..." is what i searching for... :-)      
       
#This is what i do when i get bored.... :-p

Love Is Not Easy...!!!

Never Take It For Granted...!!!
I just have a debate with one of my friends about how HARD love is...and how us GUYS should not take it for granted once we have it... :-p and of course, as the "opposition" he keeps arguing about my thoughts on the DETAILS..... :-(
Well...maybe i over-think about this sort of stuff...and maybe my lack of experience make me "assume" much of the impact towards whoever that receive the blow....but what the heck...!!! :-p I always routing for those whom appreciate their partner and respect their needs and desire...always try to fulfill their every heart content because it shows that you care so much about them (well...it goes in both ways of course...) :-) but it kind of sad to see that some of us take LOVE for granted and assume that the idea of "trying" is enough...and "maintaining" is just a word...Its kind of making me irritated a bit about his so-called "theory" which just stops at the part when she says "yes" and not do anything once she starts "giving" :-( Trust me dude...you will make your partner hesitate about the choices that she makes later...(Hopefully everything goes fine between both of you...)

The Myth...!!!
A lot of love stories in the movies stops at the part when both of the main characters are married...or meeting each other (finally)....but rarely we see a sequel of them living their life's together...right? I mean..what happen after the marriage? what about their career? what about their children? have you ever think about it?
I noted that every single person have their own story to tell...and each of them are different from other people...but wouldn't it hurt to just put an effort to make both of your life's happier? always remember that "understanding" is about having the idea of what's going on with your life...but "accepting" is about tolerating on those matter...and if you or your partner is blind enough to see that...means that he or she is not putting enough effort in the relationship....
~Don't give love a bad name...~

The Apocalypse of Love...!!!
I know that putting "money" as the basis for love is not right...but judging by the thoughts of continuum of both of your life as equally happy and financially secure makes it more and more relevant in the nowadays environment....
One of my friends already having his first new-born baby and he is also struggling to put an effort to ensure that the life of his family is secure...(nothing comes easy with this dude...haha)~Bless you bro~ :-)
Some of my friends has become a scavengers...and money are like "everything" to them now...and when i ask the reasons being...their reply were "i want to get married bro...." haha :-p
For me...it is not wrong for you to either be broke,,,or penniless...because sometimes, when loves are in the air..you will find your true love eventually...but it is wrong for you to be living as you are once you have it..right? because you are suppose to give your best to your partner and always make sure that decision that they make are not a wrong ones....because once they have those thoughts...you are screwed...haha :-p



~Love is not for the weak...not for the poor...and not for the broken hearted..because once you have love...it will give you courage...heals your soul...and drives you o a new height which you never been before~        

My First Time....!!!

There is always the first time for everything...right?

This is my first time entering a music competition...and I think I suck at it...haha :-p In my head, I was like..."I wanted to do this and that" on stage...but in the end...i just stuck with sitting on the chair and tapping my feet while i add it :-p
To tell you the truth...I don't really like standing in front of the crowd so much...because it always give me the butterflies in my stomach...but i guess, sometimes when you wanted to to something, you just simply forget how terrifying it was to you before and just march up ahead unknowingly :-p
But i keep my cool...haha

The Songs...!!!
Well...i performed three song at the competition and two of them were my originals...i was so scared if no one likes it (because that was my first time singing any of my songs live...) but i guess i just didn't care much about the crowd cheering over my songs because my focus is just to let everyone hear my expression of how music should be presented (getting cocky already...) and how I wanted my music to be listen...I was just relief that there were some clapping from the floor...and it was memorable when the cheer getting louder and louder when my performance is getting nearer to the end....
The feeling is just overwhelming and breathtaking....and it makes me wanted to just stay there for a little bit longer and sing my other songs...haha :-p

Fairy Tale....!!!
I wrote this song about two days before the competition starts...and i think i did a good job composing it (self-proclaimed) haha This song is actually about a boy whom his whole life was always living in a fairy tale...everything always seem perfect...and the world is always full of magical and wonderful things happen every time you wish for it...but as he grows older...he realize that the world is not what it shows and the perfect world that he lives inn were actually a fragment of his own imaginary thoughts of how the world works....in the end..the boy chose to leave his so-called "perfect" world and open himself to the real world where the sunshine is not always bright and the sky is not full of a wishing stars :-)

Wanted To Love You...!!!
This song is actually a tribute to those lovers and couples out there...i compose this song after i realize that most of my friends are getting their life's together and most of them are getting married...i was just so happy for the news that keeps coming and coming and i think by composing this song is the only way i know how to express my happiness towards their happy ending :-) This song just simply a straight up love song that tells how important the other half of you to be a part of your life...and how wonderful it will be if both of you to stay like that forever and ever... :-)
Just telling your spouse a simple "i love you" over and over again is just a life that i wanted and i guess...publish like this maybe letting some of my intention out loud for everyone to shares....haha

My Hopes...!!!
My thoughts during the performances were..that special someone for me is among the crowd...haha i was like "i hope she could hear how sincere i was during the performances" and she would just came out from the blues and say "i love you" to me... :-p -save me the trouble to search wouldn't it? haha but i guess nothing happens and the night just went as what it suppose to be....even though i lost the competition...but i think i accomplish something in my life during the performances...something that only me could understand...and only she could approve off...even though there are a lot of people that hear my performances that night...i just wanted her to know that the songs is only just for her...and even the world disapprove of my doing...i will make them understand how important this was for me...and hopefully in the end...she will come and do the same for me :-)


                                                 ~Cant Wait To Go On Stage Again~
 

The Funny Things About Life...!!!

The Expectations....!!!
Well, most of the time it seems that we rarely get what we wanted in life...right? and only few in which happens to be on the right time "knocking" when the times in need... :-p
When we needed it the most...and beg for it to appear...it just wont....and when we never expect it to show...it shows...why?
I guess life is just perfect to be imperfect as it is...and "it" is just beautiful for being ugly sometimes...haha :-p
"Us" are the one whom make our life as it is...and only "us" can make the difference...even if the life that we get is not what we hope it to be...just live it as what we wanted it to be...even the starting point is not serve on a silver plate :-)
"Life goes on..." is what i always say...and so does the hope for it to better in future...always remember that it is not wrong to be at the wrong side of the fence...but it is wrong if you stay at it too long...because you never know what life has installed for you...just be brave enough to climb the wall when the time is in need :-)

The Eyes That Bear...!!!
I once walking at this one night market near my neighborhood, and i saw this old women sitting at the corner of the crowd whilst holding a cup of an empty can and wavers it towards the wondering people and beg for some sympathy...sitting next to that old lady was her child...pale face and skinny body is just few to mention about her appearances...those two was just sit there and looking all sad whilst the other lurks just tries to avoid any eye contact with these sad people...(including me) :-( scares of commitment to help, the others just act like there is nothing to see or hear...and just continue walking by right pass them both...
Sad isn't it? for those two, life may be cruel to them...only able to dream what those people are having...cars, shirts, and maybe a warm place that could be call "home".... :-(
How about those crowd that I've mentioned? They maybe have all the basic things in life...like jobs, cars, and a little financial that may be stable at the times in need....but does it enough even for their ends to meet?
This cycle continues to those high level tycoons and tycats of the world...but even though their life has been set in stone...the "want's" has never be close for closure...the lust for "more" has never stops...

The Irony...!!!
I remember this one time when I have only a dollar in my pocket...and it seems that I could only buy either a single piece of bread or a bottle of a drinking water at this one store...and it bugs me because that time is just near lunch hour, and I have no money to buy myself any other food during that time (i was so broke) My stomach is asking for the bread, but my throat is just too thirst for those water...and I was like "what should I do...?" :-( In the end I end up buying nothing and walk out the stores with a sigh... :-( I could not think straight and I end up at my house with nothing to eat or drink...suddenly, out of the blue...my friend comes back from this one wedding and bring back a bundle of food with him...only God knows how grateful i am at that time...(but I try to remain cool...haha )
But what about those people whom doesn't have anyone to bring back food for them? how will they survive? it makes me think back at all the times when I experience "near death" situation like that and I've been save by someone unexpectedly... :-p to be at those state with a conscious mind is something that only a certain people could understand...and if they do...will they help you? :-/
Just imagine how how awful the poor women and her child when their stomach is growling loudly but have no one to care about them? It make me shed tears sometimes thinking about how my life is much more better then those two...and how ungrateful I've been thinking that I have my life miserable...Sssshhhh :-p what an ungrateful person I've become...am I right? :-(

The Thoughts....!!!
I was thinking...life is always work the other way around...when you expect it to favors you, it does the opposite...and when you less expect it to happen...it hooks you up and change your life for good...(well, it depend on your effort..) Nevertheless, you wouldn't be hoping for something if your life serves your every needs in a silver platen right? For me, this what makes life interesting...the adventure of changing your own life to be what you wanted it to be is so intriguing and exciting...because life has given everyone a chance to change their life equally and if anyone prove their existence is worthy for such reward, they will be granted by their effort...I hope my confidence do not fails me this time...haha :-p fingers cross :-)