Tears Don't Lie...!!!
What happen when you cried? Your body becomes weak...your eyes becomes teary and felt a slight pain until it becomes reddish...your nose runs with this endless fluid...your head experience this pain on the frontal and the sides...your throat seems dried out from those silent screams...your voice becomes a bit grasp and fading...and lastly you keep on coupling your hands above your face makes it hard to breathe...sad to see yourself in that situation right? hahaha - its pathetic and encouraging at the same time...
The amount of your sadness that you felt at that specific moment is equivalent to how much you try to suffocate yourself that time - the more you close your face during this process means the more deep the feeling is...and it shows how intense the pressure towards your emotion. In some cases, crying can be a really intense situation and most of the time it can drive people crazy out of the conscious of their mind. So yeah...crying is genuine...even if you are the best actor of the world, you can't perfectly fake it...
Why Do I Cry...?
A lot of things are played in my mind at the moment...some are doubts towards myself...some are the current situation that i'm in right now...some are due to feelings and emotions...families...and other stuff which seems little at times, but when it emerge itself in a bundle, can be quite a show...so yeah, i cried over these "small" stuff... - pathetic? or just being a normal human being?
Its been almost 4 years after i first take this journey of mine to discover whom am I and what am I suppose to do in life...reaching to this last years of my journey i can see that there are a lot more things will be left undiscovered...as any person would suggest to me, i need to make my decision and focus only on things that i wish to do for the rest of my live... - not an easy decision as i love a lot of things which i don't know whether i can take it all in with me at the end of this journey or not...
Am I Weak...?
This are the question which i asked myself during this whole charade of teary scenes...i keep on asking myself have my heart become soft? have i lost my focus? or i just decided to give up on my dream and give myself to the world? Then i cried...over and over again..silently in my own room without even letting a single noise went through my bedroom door...i scream in silent..my voice becomes soar till no noise actually comes out anymore...my nose is running fluid like crazy...my head becomes heavy and painful...i felt i'm going to faint at times...
And when the tears flowing down to my face...then went down to my shirt...it strikes me that this is not a sign of weakness...this is only me acknowledging what's happened to me in life (since I've been denying it as to show that i am focusing on my goals) and these flashback actually a sign for me to make a change in life...perhaps the things that i've done so far have some flaws...or there is a miscalculations somewhere...or am i too naive...or am i still need to push myself further deep...but one thing for sure is that I felt a bit better about myself...I did something so crazy that it has shaken my own ego...Its a humbling feeling and a prideful moment for me as well...The question is, how much more can i take?
What happen when you cried? Your body becomes weak...your eyes becomes teary and felt a slight pain until it becomes reddish...your nose runs with this endless fluid...your head experience this pain on the frontal and the sides...your throat seems dried out from those silent screams...your voice becomes a bit grasp and fading...and lastly you keep on coupling your hands above your face makes it hard to breathe...sad to see yourself in that situation right? hahaha - its pathetic and encouraging at the same time...The amount of your sadness that you felt at that specific moment is equivalent to how much you try to suffocate yourself that time - the more you close your face during this process means the more deep the feeling is...and it shows how intense the pressure towards your emotion. In some cases, crying can be a really intense situation and most of the time it can drive people crazy out of the conscious of their mind. So yeah...crying is genuine...even if you are the best actor of the world, you can't perfectly fake it...
Why Do I Cry...?
A lot of things are played in my mind at the moment...some are doubts towards myself...some are the current situation that i'm in right now...some are due to feelings and emotions...families...and other stuff which seems little at times, but when it emerge itself in a bundle, can be quite a show...so yeah, i cried over these "small" stuff... - pathetic? or just being a normal human being?
Its been almost 4 years after i first take this journey of mine to discover whom am I and what am I suppose to do in life...reaching to this last years of my journey i can see that there are a lot more things will be left undiscovered...as any person would suggest to me, i need to make my decision and focus only on things that i wish to do for the rest of my live... - not an easy decision as i love a lot of things which i don't know whether i can take it all in with me at the end of this journey or not...Am I Weak...?
This are the question which i asked myself during this whole charade of teary scenes...i keep on asking myself have my heart become soft? have i lost my focus? or i just decided to give up on my dream and give myself to the world? Then i cried...over and over again..silently in my own room without even letting a single noise went through my bedroom door...i scream in silent..my voice becomes soar till no noise actually comes out anymore...my nose is running fluid like crazy...my head becomes heavy and painful...i felt i'm going to faint at times...
And when the tears flowing down to my face...then went down to my shirt...it strikes me that this is not a sign of weakness...this is only me acknowledging what's happened to me in life (since I've been denying it as to show that i am focusing on my goals) and these flashback actually a sign for me to make a change in life...perhaps the things that i've done so far have some flaws...or there is a miscalculations somewhere...or am i too naive...or am i still need to push myself further deep...but one thing for sure is that I felt a bit better about myself...I did something so crazy that it has shaken my own ego...Its a humbling feeling and a prideful moment for me as well...The question is, how much more can i take?
~The biggest enemy of yourself is your own ego~
