Since I started this journey of mine, I've encounter a lot of negativity surrounding me...and the biggest challenges does come from those whom knew me personally...let it be just a hoax gesture or simply plain crooked bash-drop towards my ambition....nevertheless, people keep on trying to pull me down and there were times where I felt "maybe it's time to condone to their demands...."
"People just don't see what I'm trying to do..." My tracks does move from side to side, but my focus has never waver even for one bit...If only I can make them see what I see...(however if one thing that experience do teach me, you will never able to satisfy the whole lot of them)...so I decided to keep my mouth shut and stay in the dark...let them wondering rather than I do the explaining...it's better that way i guess....As far as age is concern, it does torn me a bit seeing a lot of my friends and relatives getting married...have kids...plus have their life together so perfectly...and sometimes I think to myself "did I do this wrongly...?"
Different People Have Different Timeline...!!!
Not all have a good written timeline on their side...so I never judge those who have it late...or praise those who have it earlier...because I know that mine maybe somewhere in between (hopefully)...What I need to really focus on is to reach where I believe could bring me to my happiness...Now I realize people saying that "even you doing nothing wrong, people still want to bring you down..." It's not as if I meddling with their life or anything, but their sense of eagerness and curiosity led them towards that conclusion...and the end, it wrecks other people's life...and trust me, it hurts like hell...especially when the closest is the one whom led the way...Most of the time, when I look back into my life, I can only see loneliness...just pure loneliness...but when time passes by, those loneliness started to slowly disappear...not by odds...but by heart content on desperate relief and self-salvation...no one can release you from your despair accept for yourself...and no one can bring you down unless you let them too...
Will The Journey Continue...?
I will try my best to uphold my believe...until the end of time...until the end of my life...I will keep on going towards this road that I choose...either I succeeded or die trying..that's the only way I know how...I don't really care much of what people say..or what they will do to me...what I know is that this is my "Nindo ~ Ninja Way"....and no one can take that away from me...no one will....ever...!!!I hope this will inspire those whom have dreams...and please always going towards it...never waver..and never think for a second that you are going south...because trust me, when you see everyone is going north, going south aren't really that bad....always be different...because Allah created us different as an individual...why must we became a same person? It's good to unite...but unite as "one" is different than "being one"...so always beware...copycats are everywhere nowadays...!!! Be yourself...stay true to yourself... :-)
